It was another night of restless sleeping, have to love
insomnia! So I thought I would share with you a few things that I have been
thinking about.
After sitting and
waiting at all the clinics, I have become a pretty good people watcher. =) As I sit watching people, I see many people
just going on about their daily lives as if nothing is wrong. It has got me thinking about my own life. I
was just living life, going on with work and school without a thought of it
ever changing, but in an instant of time my life changed forever. It’s made me more grateful for what I have.
My life quickly
changed. I went from spending time with
friends one night, to being extremely sick the next day. Although I am sick and can’t do everything I
was able to do before becoming ill, I have a lot to be thankful for. It could be so much worse. When we are at Mayo, I see many “sick” people
and what they have to go through. I
still have my eye sight, I’m not on chemo for cancer, Im not on a transplant
list, I don’t have to go every other day for dialysis, I haven’t lost all my
hair, I can breathe on my own without the help of O2, and the list could go on
and on. Yeah, I might not always be able
to walk far distances without the aid of a wheel chair, but I can still walk! I have so much to be grateful for! There are
days where I think about my life before SLE and wish if I could go back and do
some of things I was doing. It can be
hard some days, and I am still learning to adjust.
One of my medications
is known to cause blindness. I have
learned that sometimes you have to weigh the risks with the benefits. My eye doctor said it is very rare for that to
happen and he hasn’t seen many cases where it has been an issue. It’s made me think, though, and be thankful
that I can still see all the beautiful wonders the Lord has given us. There are days when Heaven sounds really
good! When I was in the hospital they almost
lost me, but it wasn’t the Lords timing. Whatever the reason might be, He still
has a plan and reason for me here.
I have many things to be thankful for besides health issues.
I have a wonderful mother who works hard
to give me a place to live, clothes on my back and food to eat. I have no clue how I could go through this
without her! From day one she has given up her time for me. She helps me when I can’t help myself, and is
always willing to take me places and wheel me around. She told me one day that she will take care of
me till she can’t do it anymore. I can’t
explain how much those words meant to me! I love you mommy! Thanks for being giving of yourself
to give to me!
There are many people praying for me and helping my mother
and I out. Some I don’t even know.
Everyone’s prayers,
thoughts and kind words help me get through the tough times. There are several little kids in our church
that come up to me and tell me they are praying for me, those are some of the
sweetest words to hear and just melt my heart!
Everyday I am learning new ways how to adjust to my new life. When the days get hard, I just remind myself
how much I still have and that there is a reason and plan for everything. Here are a couple of verses that I love and
cling to often, as well as two of my favorite songs.
1 Thessalonians 5:1
In everything give
thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto
thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy
paths.
Philippians 4:4-8
4 Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice.
5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at
hand.
6 Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and
supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding,
shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever
things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure,
whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be
any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
So long for now!
Katie
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